BlackBird Spiral

Relax, Justin told him to relax and even thinking about trying to relax was going to be hard. How was he supposed to be comfortable when there were people that he had never met already having crushes on him, not to mention being a place as extravagant as this. Felix did take a small breath and let his shoulders slump "I trust you" he finally said and walked over to wear he had stripped his clothes off the night before. He picked them up and noticed that they were decently clean and should do for now "I hope you're right about your family hun...I just hope they don't know anything about male hosts or the business" Felix began to tell Justin but then mumble the last part because he was said the last part to help ease his own mind about meeting Justin's family. He then slipped his clothes back on and turned to Justin "Well I'm ready" Felix told him because there wasn't really much he needed to do to prepare for the morning.

Walking to Felix he sighed. "Baby they will love you, because I love you" He swallowed, surely this wasn't the first time that they had said it, he hoped it wasn't the time for a declaration of love he wanted their first time to be special. He kissed his neck softly and down to his collar bone. He licked his lips and then sighed. "If this is too much you don't have to do anything, I can go get breakfast and bring it back here, we can just spend the day together doing nothing.

He sighed, he wanted this man to feel more comfortable with him and his family. He wrapped his arms around him and held him close. "Anything you want I will do for you" He kissed him gently and sighed.

For a moment his mind drifted to the books he had been reading, he shook his head soflty. No...a dom/sub relationship would never work with them, as much as it turned him on to think of being some ones dom or Sub he kissed him gently on the cheek and smiled. "So baby what do oyu want?" He just hoped he had hide those books well enough, didn't know how Felix would react to them.

This was a whole different side of Justin and Felix wondered if he was acting this way just to make him feel better, part of him was enjoying the attention Justin gave him but the other part wondered if he could ever get used to this. Was he cut out to be the partner of someone rich because he loved them and not for money? As Felix contemplated that his heart decided that it wanted to jump into his throat. Justin actually said I love you and he wasn't sure how to respond to that. They had talked about it, or at least Felix thought they did but now it seemed real. Seemed as though the words were serious and they weren't playing around anymore. He had to take a deep breath before looking into Justin's eyes. "You know I love you too and it's going to take time for me to get used to things around here and holding up in the pool house isn't the way to go" Felix explained to him and besides he was more of a gentleman then to cower in some corner.

"Come on my little minx, let's get going to breakfast before everything gets cold" he told Justin after he kissed him back. He knew that Justin was just trying to make him comfortable here but it wasn't like he was going to bolt or anything. It had been a thought yesterday after getting the shock of where Justin lived but it passed...mostly.

Justin smiled as he heard those words leave his lovers mouth. He really did love him, and not for all his stuff but for him. He sighed when he agreed to go with him to the house. He grasped his hand and kissed it softly, "don't worry"

He held his hand and chucked as he got called a minx. "Hmm a minx huh?" He teased. Once in the house he sighed turns out all his family was there. "Well was hoping that this wouldn't happen at once but here is my family." His mom came over and embraced Felix. "Well this is the man that has stolen my sons heart, so good to met you" His father nodded "Excuse my wife she is a huggie person" He shook Felix's hand and waved to the table. "Eat up you look famished"

His siblings introduced themselves and Justin stood by him the entire time holding him close then sat down offering him a chair next to him. "You okay?" He whispered.

He wasn't sure how to explain his thought process to Justin but let it go for now, Felix was just glad to be getting this over with. As they stepped into the room Felix frozen when he saw Justin's parent's faces, these were the people that he had escorted to Justin's room when he was in the hospital. He had talked to the man briefly and said something strange to him and yet this man acting friendly towards him 'Wonder if they remember that day or if they realize the reason Justin went to the hospital was because of me' he thought to himself but put his award winning host smile on his face so he didn't seem bummed out.

"Thank you for letting me join all of you" he said and realized how easy it was to revert back to his host charm. Felix had to take a breath to remind himself that he shouldn't have to impress anyone here and did as he was instructed, taking a seat next to Justin. Felix leaned into Justin's ear range. "Everything is just fine sweetie" he whispered back to him and then turned towards the food.

How much should he eat? Though the actually question was how much could his body handle eating at this point. Felix pulled a few things onto his plate but making sure it would be just enough or less of an item so he wouldn't make himself sick. "Your home is very lovely Ma'am" Felix finally lifted his gaze from his plate to look at Justin's mother and giving her a heartwarming smile.

He looked over to Felix. He rubbed his hand over his and squeezed his hand. "Baby its okay" He whispered softly. He knew that he had slipped into his Host persona he could sense it. He smiled and elbowed him. "Eat up, figured we could go swimming later"

Justin's mom beemed. "Ma'am?" She looked around. "Oh for a second I thought my mom was here" She chuckled. "You can call me Martha if you wish" Justin rolled his eyes. "My mom is very unformal" He sighed and ate up then placed his hand on Felix's leg. "So what would you like to do today, Felix?"

Felix gave Justin a smirk, the tone of his voice suggested that Justin knew something but Felix never wavered from his host like demeanor. Though when Justin elbowed him he jumped slightly and took several bites of his food "Swimming huh?...sounds good" he replied but his thoughts weren't as convincing about swimming. He remembered Justin's sister saying something about Justin working himself to death by doing laps in the pool and Felix didn't want Justin to get like that again. However he just kept those thoughts to himself and continued eating. "I'm sorry if I offended you Martha...my...parent's taught me to respect those older then myself" Felix commented softly hoping that he hadn't screwed up to bad. He turned his attention slightly to Justin but kept some on Justin's parents, only because he wondered and was half afraid that they would ask him if he was the only they met at the hospital. "As long as we're together I don't mind what we do today" Felix replied as he placed a hand atop Justin's, almost forgetting they were sitting with Justin's parent's.

Justin wasn't sure everything was okay with Felix and he felt guilty for springing his entire family on him at once. After breakfast he would make up for it.

Martha shook her head. "No offense just wanted you to feel more welcomed is all" The family made small talk about upcoming football games and such. Soon after the meal Justin helped clean up the dishes then took Felix outside by the pool. It was fairly warm outside so he turned suddenly and lead him to another door. "Here is the inside pool figure its not the best idea to have you outside too much, you know your fair skin" He paused then stroked his arms. "Baby I am sorry I guess my family is a lot to handle" He swallowed. "I will understand if they are too much for you"

Felix sat and listened to Justin's family as he took small bites of his food, there were only a few conversations that he could actually weight in, other then that he just listened. It wasn't like Felix had been able to catch up on the news or things like that due to the jobs he held. But he was trying to at least get to know Justin's family so he wasn't too out of place.

When breakfast was done he followed Justin to a pool and stared at the water, it looked really inviting and he was about to strip to get into the pool however before he was able to Justin lead him through another door to another pool. He was thankful to Justin for remembering that his skin was fair but apparently Justin hadn't looked hard at him since reuniting. Felix wrapped his arms around Justin's shoulders into a loving hug and then pulled back "thank you for remembering about the lightness of my skin but sweetheart you should look more closely now" he told him in a gentle tone and then stripped off the shirt he was wear. Felix took a few steps backwards so that he was standing in the sunlight coming through a window and smile as the golden rays lit up his now sun kissed skin. "Since leaving my job at the club I was able to spend more time in the sun, not to mention I was actually made to work out more to build muscle so I wouldn't be so weak if I needed to defend myself while being with the Yakuza"

((I am really sorry about not being on or responding or being able to let you know I was going to be MIA for a while. Several things have been piling up since I moved into a house and haven't had the time to mess around on the internet. Hopefully though I will be able to get on more as things calm down))

Once he stepped back Justin looked over at Felix and smiled "Baby you look like my own personal god" He stroked his arms and nodded. "Well I am sorry" He kissed his lips softly and then walked back outside with him. Stripping down to just some shorts and dove in. "Com on in sweetie"

He swam to a pool floatie and laid on it on his stomach watching to see where he was.

((That's okay I hope you are okay...and sorry this one is short...hope you like it though))

Felix had a hard time not smiling from ear to ear or blushing at Justin's comment, he was no where near a god...just a decent person who is finally able to be more like himself but he wasn't going to correct Justin on that. "Thank you" he said though wondered as to why Justin had apologized however he let that thought slip from his mind as he followed Justin back out to the outside pool.

He slipped from his shoes and then stripped from his pants, revealing a pair of boxers then pulled his socks off. Felix followed suit and dove into the water, it felt great on his heated skin and stayed under the water for a little bit before popping up to the surface for the need of air. Once comfortable enough in the water he started to float on his back "I don't know how you find the ability to leave this place...even for a little bit" Felix commented, for him he could stay held up in this place for months without a care.

((That's alright on the shortness. I'm doing better now. How have you been?))

Feeling the cool droplets land on him as the other man jumped in he yelped but then laughed. "Glad you like it here baby" He moved the floatie over to him. "We don't have to leave for a long time" He touched his face softly. He just couldn't believe how lucky he was. He licked his lips and sighed. "How did I get so lucky"

Felix didn't mean his words literally though part of him did just want to stay here and not leave but he did still need to get some clothes and other items. Hell if he still had his old apartment then he could just go back there and get things but since that place had probably been rented out again and his things probably thrown out he was SOL on that front. Felix glanced over at Justin after standing on the bottom of the pool.

He had been thinking the same thing, starting off life in his family was chaotic and then things spiraled downwards only to find himself stuck in one place then all of a sudden a man enters his life and turns it upsides. Felix now realized that it was for the better but still couldn't help but feel worried that all of this was going to be ripped out from under his feet. "I think its how did I get to have such a wonderful man in my otherwise stained life...I'm waiting for you to realize that you can do better" he said softly and then pulled Justin off the pool floaty and held him to his chest.

Justin turned to him. "Baby we can go shopping later if you want" He kissed him softly. "Then we can take it from there" He smiled and rubbed Felix's back. "I love you, and I want to be able to get you some stuff I know you need" He grinned. "Maybe even some sex toys?" He grinned and kissed his neck.

"So what do you think about that?" He kissed him again,.

((How do you feel about them going somewhere where they will get into a threesome action?))

Felix was taken back at Justin's words, the man that he had first met seemed to be so nervous and scared of anything that involved getting intimate with another person and yet here he was talking about bring toys into the bedroom. Where had the quiet, cute Justin go that he fell in love with? It wasn't like he didn't like the new Justin but it seemed like he was trying to make up for the time that they were apart...or maybe he was coming on really strong because he thought that was what Felix wanted.

There were just too many unanswered questions that he had and no way to ask Justin about them without creating a misunderstanding. "Getting a few things would be nice...at least a few outfits and bathroom items" he finally told Justin and gave him a warm smile however it still felt like he was in his host persona 'maybe it was a bad idea to meet his family this fast. I can't seem to get out of my old habits' Felix thought to himself. "I never pinned you for the type who would want toys like that but they can be fun if you get the right ones" Felix swam a little to warm up his body from sitting in one position for too long "So how about we get dried off, clean up and do a little shopping..." he turned to go to the edge of the pool to get out but stopped and turned to Justin "though I think it would be a good idea if we didn't shop in this town" he prompted just to make sure Justin understood what he had meant. It was only one day since he hadn't reported to the boss after sneaking out and Felix was sure that the others were still out looking for him.

Justin frowned and licked her lips. He saw the look that came over Felix. He only suggested that store because he was scared that he wasn't enough for Felix. He always have had experienced men when he was working. And now he just had Justin the man that still froze when he was touched. He saw the change and wished he could take the words back.

Instead he nodded." Alright we can get dressed, and your right we shouldn't shop here, I can get my driver to take us to the next town over. He smiled at him. "Hey Felix, I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable you don't need to go to that type of store, I was just thinking that you messed it"

He got dressed and radioed his security team and relayed the message then the turned to Felix "Well its going to be a bit of a struggle to get out of here, but where we are going no one will see us"

Felix was curious as to what Justin was thinking, was he being too pushy on the other male or was he not voicing enough of his thoughts to him. Too many things to deal with and he just wanted to be comfortable with Justin and not having to worry about all those little drama bits. But there was no way of getting around it and they would just have to work through them. "Toys are nice Justin but I don't want to push anything on you. They were something that were a part of my life but I know that things aren't normal in our relationship so I don't want to push to hard. I just want you to be comfortable and actually enjoy being with another person" he explained after getting out of the pool and drying off.

He nodded his head after Justin talked to the security "What do you mean a bit of struggle?" Felix questioned and now wondered what was going on in the outside world. Was he just creating more problems for Justin? 'It might be better if I take off for a little bit...at least until everything calms down' Felix thought to himself but with one look at Justin he couldn't bring himself to leave this man again. He would miss that face and those kisses too much and if he were to take off once again it might actually break him, not to mention Justin. "So where will we be going? I normally don't just go store hopping to buy things. I've kind of been told where to go to get the kinds of clothes I needed...so you are probably better at this then me..." Felix thought about it and Justin might not have that much experience in this area either "Or should we ask your sister for help...she is a girl after all and they tend to have a decent sense of fashion"

Justin smiled. "Ohh you are brave if you want to unleash my sister" He smiled it would be good for her to get out too. He picked up his phone. "Hey Jessa you want to come with us shopping, Felix needs a opionion and such" Justin winced and held the phone away from his ear. There was a squeal of "yes" Justin raised his eyebrow to Felix "Well I guess that is a yes"

He walked up to him and hugged the man his body still tense. 'I am sorry about before, you just have had so much before and I wasn't sure if you are enjoying the plain old Vanilla sex"

When the car came he got in with Jessa and held on to Felix's hand. The ride was about a hour long. He made small talk but Jessa asked most of the questions and did most of the talking. Once they got to the store the doors were locked behind them. "Private shopping trip" Justin smiled at Felix. "Hunni pick out what ever you want Jessa here will help you. Justin sat down in a chair as Jessa began pilling clothes on Felix then shoed him to a dressing room. Jessa had given him everything from a more western look with jeans and bottom up shirts to dress pants and suits. Plus there was what ever Felix had picked out if there was anything. If he looked Felix would notice that there was no price tags on anything. Justin had a account here so everything would just go on there and Felix would never have to know the price.

"Let me have a look babe" Justin said softly.

Felix slightly regretted his comment about taking Justin's sister when he heard her squeal through the phone but after finding out that she had also been hurt by his actions and Blaine he felt bad and wanted to find some way to make it up to her. 'It shouldn't be too terrible for her to come along' he thought to himself however that thought only lasted until they got to the store and she started piling clothes into his arms.

Felix was still trying to get over the fact that they were locked into the store for a private shopping trip. When he was shoved to the dressing rooms and started to shift through the clothe Felix realized that there were no price tags "What am I going to do?" He commented softly to himself as he continued to look at the clothes. More hesitant thoughts popped up into his head, should he stay around and let Justin spend all this money on him and if he did, would Justin come to resent him for all this?

He jumped slightly when he heard Justin's voice and something about seeing the clothes. Felix quickly stripped out of his worn jeans and shirt and slipping into an brand new outfit. It wasn't exactly what he would have picked himself wearing but he also didn't want to hurt Jessa's feelings. Felix had hoped to get away from the fancy suits and ties, hell he would have like to have just normal clothing for once. Like the kind he used to wear when he was in college but this is what had been picked for him so he was going to be nice. Felix stepped from the dressing room to show both of them the outfit and tried really had to look excited about it. "So...what do you guys think?"

Jessa frowned and turned to Justin. "I don't think he likes me" She frowned then smiled. "Well I just wanted to see the first outfits on him to get his style. Guess I should have said that but" She slumped down. "Maybe I should just go" Justin grabbed her arm and shook his head.

"No stay he is just shy and we mainly me are overwhelming" When Felix stepped out both Justin and Jessa made a face. Jessa stood and walked around him. "Okay now that I got your body type and style I can see that most of the clothes I picked are no good" She sighed "Sorry I just got excited, I am trying to go to school for this, you know a clothes disgner and well Justin here has stopped letting me dress him, so I suck, but what would you pick"

Justin walked up to him and kissed him then kissed whispered in his ear. "This chain is owned by a family friend so that is why we have a private shopping trip okay" He kissed his ear. "And I asked them to take the price tags off so you wouldn't choice what is cheap and not what you like" He hugged him close. "You gave me something that I thought I would never have ,so please let me do this for you"

Felix stood there waiting for them to say something and almost sighed with relief that they didn't like the outfit either. He listened to what they both had to say and a smile of ease finally came across his face, he was glad that he wasn't just a clothing dummy for this girl and that she was actually trying to accomplish something. "I would like to thank both of you for doing this for me. I don't mind you dressing me Jessa...it's just the fact that all the clothes you picked out I've already been told I had to wear for certain reasons." He explained to her in a nice tone and shook his head a little bit "I appreciate what you are trying to do Justin but if it is something you like to see on me I would get it though just by looking at the clothes I can tell they are expensive but I won't think about that, ok" he told Justin and kissed him back.

Though he really would have liked to just go to a mall and grab a few things to wear but if this is what Justin wanted he would get a few outfits. Felix started to walk through the store a little bit to check out some of the clothes and to find something that was to his tastes. He was able to find two pair of jeans that had an acid wash look to them and looked as if they were worn though the feel of the fabric told him they were brand new. Felix moved onto the shirts and found a couple simple ones that had pleasant designs on them and then walked back over to the two. He showed them what he had picked out "What do you think?" He wanted to know what they thought before he even tried them on.

Listing Jessa gasped. "Oh Felix I am sorry, I know that that is like, before we moved here I was kept na-" She trailed off. "Never mind" She shook her head and let him pick his own clothes and instead dressed three of the Mannequins instead. When he came up to her with clothes she nodded. "Alright looks good" She picked out a scarf from a rack that would go good with the jeans. "What do you think of this?" She looked around then turned to Justin. "Justin after this I want to go to the mall too"

Justin raised an eyebrow. "YOU want to go to the mall?" Jessa shrugged. "Sure why not, I bet Felix here would like to go too lots of other stores to pick from, and such" Justin wasn't sure what was going on but Jessa didn't like malls she didn't like the public places but he wouldn't deny her anything.

He turned to Felix. "So what do you think, do you want to hit the malls? We can get some more stuff, some lunch, maybe even some more stuff like swimming stuff and what ever else we need, I know I need some new clothes too"

The clothes were still a little stiff but Felix was sure that they would loosen up over time, he was a little surprised that Jessa picked up on the fact that a mall would be better. He just didn't want to stand out and hopefully he could find more normal clothing at the mall. "Mall sounds fine to me" he told Justin and looked down at the outfit he was still wearing. "Though I do like this outfit, so how about we get this one and then go to the mall" he told them with a smile on his face and decided it was best to get back into his other clothes.

After he walked back out and had the outfit from before in his hands he looked up to the two. "So...what kind of things does the mall have?...um I've just heard stories so I'm also curious as to what the place looks like" he told them while rubbing the back of his neck, he felt kind of stupid asking about the mall but it was true. He hardly spent anytime out socializing and only had the experience of his college days for information on malls and normal clubs, the food could have even changed.

"Then we will buy this outfit, now lets go and buy some that you can wear home" Jessa tried to cover her shock but failed Justin shot her a look and Jessa covered her shock by a cough.

"It has everthing babe, almost every store" He paused then smiled "Here lets go take a look"

They drove to the mall and Justin lightly took Felix's hand giving him a lot of chance to break free of his hand. "So what are you looking for and I will direct you to it" He led him to a interactive map where you could either type in something or touch different stores that would show what the had then how to get there.

"So go ahead love "