Settle Down.

Zach moaned as Teioh repeated the action, thrusting his fingers against the bundle of nerves again. He bit back a whimper at the loss of the fingers inside him, knowing that they were only getting started. He didn't have to wait long, getting a kiss before the brunette thrust his cock into him in one quick motion. He let out a short scream, this one of pain, twining the fingers of one hand into the sheets tightly, sure he could feel his muscles tearing. He wasn't given much time before the older man was starting to pick up the pace, forcing himself to relax, to let his body adjust to something so much larger than the two long fingers. He spread his legs a bit farther, glad that he was rather flexible, moving his hips to meet Teioh's thrusts now, getting used to the feeling of the man's erection.

The scream sent a shudder down Teioh's spine. He found it thrilling, he always did, it had just been so long since he had made a partner scream out like that. He had never brought himself to treat his wife so roughly. He sped up his pace as he felt the other man had gotten more used to it. He felt himself sliding in and out with more of an ease then before, looking down seeing the slightest amount of blood trickling down Zach's leg. Teioh grunted at the sight and thrust deeper into the man, lifting his hips slightly and putting one of the man's pale legs over his shoulder so he could thrust down harder and deeper. "Mm, Zach." Teioh moaned. One of his hands was gripping Zach's hip the other now moved to the blond's arousal and he pumped it idly, at about half the time of his own thrusts.

Zach let out a loud groan as the brunette picked up the pace, thrusting into him faster than before. He allowed his leg to be moved over Teioh's shoulder, giving the older man a better angle, and Zach could feel himself being filled more. He was blissfully unaware of the fact that he was bleeding, the pain having faded as he got used to the feeling, and swept up in his pleasure as the older man started to pump his erection, though not as fast as he would have liked. The sound of Teioh moaning his name was rather thrilling, and he couldn't help but wonder how long it had been since somebody had done that. He slung one arm over Teioh's shoulder, opposite of his leg, half clinging to the man as he was pounded into, letting out occasional cries, either wordless, or the brunette's name.

After a few minutes of thrusting, his pace with his hand on Zach's cock slowly increasing as the time went by, he was near completion and he would have to hope Zach was too. His last few thrusts felt deeper but he propelled himself towards that sensitive bundle he had found earlier. One the fourth he pushed himself in as far as possible, shuddering and moaning loudly as he came inside the other man. Riding it out for a moment he lowered Zach's leg again and pulled himself out lying himself out beside the other man. "It has been way to long since I've done that..." he said, his voice slightly ragged as his eyes closed slightly, "And just so you know...you're bleeding." he said with a laugh opening his eyes again and keeping them pinned on the blond lying next to him.

Zach was brought closer to his climax as Teioh's hand sped up, and his thrusts nailed that spot deep inside of him. He came with a scream a moment after Teioh, letting his arm fall to the bed when the older man pulled out, his leg lowered back down as well. He ran a hand through his slightly sweaty blonde hair, catching his breath. He glanced sideways to Teioh, a bit confused about that, seeing as he was married, but he didn't pry. At the comment about him bleeding, Zach reached a hand down to wipe a hand across his inner thigh, his fingers coming away with a mixture of blood and cum. He grimaced slightly at the sight of it. "Great. That's delicious" he commented a bit sarcastically. Sure, it wasn't the first time he had bled because of sex, and he was sure it wouldn't be his last, but it was never the best feeling after the fact.

Teioh laughed unable to help himself when Zach wiped away some of the liquid from between his legs. He reached forward with one hand lacing his finger between the other man's bringing his hand closer and licking the blood and cum off of his fingers. He let both hands hit the bed after Zach's hand was clean and laughed again, "Maybe you should go get yourself cleaned up though." Teioh suggested rubbing his thumb over Zach's hand, hardly noticing he was doing it. "I'll get in the shower after you." he said though he was planning on leaving when Zach got in the shower, he didn't think it was a good idea to stay any longer and now that his high had faded considerably he felt horrible for what he had done. His mind was already racking through all the possibly excuses he could come up with.

Zach raised an eyebrow when Teioh pulled his hand over to him, giving a slight laugh when the brunette licked his fingers clean. He let out a light sigh, looking down his body, giving a nod. "Yeah, I should" he ran a hand through his hair, his eyes flicking over the marks that marred his pale skin, knowing he would have to do something about those before work. Thankfully he had a couple days before he had to worry about that. He glanced at their hands for a moment, watching the older man's thumb move over his hand. "Mm'kay" he sighed again, sitting up and swinging his feet over the side of the bed, pulling his hand away from Teioh's. He winced slightly as he got to his feet, walking to the door before turning back around. "If you plan on leaving before I get out, at least leave a note telling me where I can get a ticket to your orchestra" he said with a slight smile, knowing how things like this generally meant. He really didn't expect Teioh to stick around now. He had a family to get back to, and probably some explaining to do.

Teioh propped himself up on his side as he watched Zach get up, he waved off the comment about leaving a note. He had been planning on doing that anyway. He picked up his pants off the floor and rummaged through to find his wallet he pulled it out and opened it fishing around for a business card or something, he knew he carried them generally but he failed to find one. He pulled out a piece of paper instead. He had thought it was just a scrap piece of paper but it seemed to be a picture of his family. He laughed, he would love to see Zach's face when he saw it. He got himself out of bed and pulled on his underwear and pants before finding the nearest writing utensil. He jotted down the address of the hall he could buy the tickets the continued to write down his address, cell number and home number. he finished it all off with, 'Hope to hear from you, babe.' Before signing it with his very sharp signature and putting a little heart beside his name. He left it on his empty plate before he continued to get himself dressed. He left the place and headed outside silently trying to figure out where he was. After a while of guessing he started his trek home. He still had to get ready for his performance on top of coming up with excuses. He far from noticed the fact that he didn't have the ring he had thrown earlier, and he didn't really care.

Zach walked into his bathroom, flicking on the light and sighing at the sight of him in the mirror. His manager was definitely going to kill him, but it wouldn't matter as much unless they were getting shots of him shirtless sometime soon, which he really hoped they weren't. He didn't want to have to show everybody the love marks all over his torso. Closing the door and turning on the shower, he got it to a nice temperature before stepping in. It didn't take the blonde long to get himself thoroughly cleaned off, turning off the taps and grabbing a towel, drying off his body and hair before wrapping the towel around his waist. He opened the bathroom door to the sound of silence, sure he was alone now. Stepping into his bedroom, his thoughts were confirmed, the room empty, Teioh's clothes gone, and a piece of paper lying on the empty plate. Grabbing clean boxers and jeans from a drawer, he got dressed in those before grabbing a t-shirt, not really caring which one it was before he dragged it over his head. After brushing his hair, he felt very clean, other than the fact that his ass hurt, which made him feel dirty at the same time. Shrugging that off, he walked around the side of his bed, planning on washing his sheets before cleaning the kitchen, but he stepped on something hard on his way around the bed. Frowning and picking it up, guilt twisted in his stomach as he looked at the wedding ring that was in his hand. He couldn't believe he had agreed to sleep with a married man. He sighed loudly and crossed to the other side of the bed, picking up the note left for him, reading it over before noticing that it wasn't just a piece of paper, flipping it over, his eyebrows drew together. "He left me a note, on a picture of his family!?" he hissed to himself, the guilt increasing as he looked at the faces of Teioh's family. Sighing heavily, he grabbed his phone off of his bedside table and entered Teioh's contact information before sending a text to him. 'Hey, its zach. You forgot your ring. . . what do you want me to do with it?' he hit the send button, sitting down on the edge of the bed, shaking his head.

Teioh was far from home when his phone went off signalling he had a text message, though his phone wasn’t on his person anyways but was at home. He wasn’t allowed to bring it to performances so it was often left at home. Shiro, the eldest of Teioh’s kids, older than his twin brother by mere moments, noticed the phone go off and frowned at it, his silver brows furrowing. He walked over and looked at the front to see an unfamiliar number flash across the front. He had wondered why his father hadn’t been home that night and maybe this had something to do with it. He wasn’t about to give up this snooping opportunity. He picked up the phone and opened the text message. He read it a couple times. “Ring?” he repeated to himself. He opened a window to respond, ‘Bring it over.’ He typed out before sending the text. He put the phone down quickly and looked around to make sure he hadn’t been found. He heard the piano playing in the living room and went to join his siblings. Ao had been very bothered when their father hadn’t come home so he and Kuro were trying to make her feel better by playing with her and teaching her the piano more.

Teioh came home not that long after the text had been sent and noticed the car wasn’t in the driveway, he sighed and pushed his hair back glad he didn’t have to deal with Mari right off the bat. Stepping inside he kicked off his shoes and listened to the soft sound of the piano from the front door. He heard someone jump and feet running, “Mommy! Did you find dad-” Ao started before actually seeing Teioh standing in front of the door. “Daddy!” She yelled running and jumping at her father who caught her and twirled her a little, holding her and kissing her on the cheek. “Where were you?” she asked a pout on her face, Teioh pinched her cheek. “Was with a friend, we had a little party for my being awesome last night.” He explained knowing that his kids would be much easier to fool then this wife. “Why wasn’t I invited?” she asked and Teioh laughed. “No girls allowed.” He replied as Kuro and Shiro stepped into the hallway. “Where’s your mom?” he asked the two boys. “Uh, out looking for you.” Kuro said brows furrowing. Teioh frowned not liking that, but also not liking the way Shiro seemed to be examining his hands.

Mari didn’t come home for a few minutes so Teioh decided to go out and try to find her. He tried to think of every single place a person would check for him and ended up at the park he had been at the night before, before he had gone to the bar and gone home with Zach. Sure enough, Mariko was sitting at the bench he tended to frequent and it looked as though she was crying. Upon closer inspection that little fear was confirmed and his felt his chest clench up. He sat down next to her and put an arm around her shoulder. She was quick to bury herself in his chest, fists clenched in his jacket. He hugged her, “Sorry...” He stated in a quiet voice. “I was so scared...” she sobbed into his chest. The two of them sat their unmoving for quite a while.

After Teioh had left again Shiro sat on the stairs next to the door waiting for the person he had texted to show up at the door. He was going to have a few questions to answer. At one point Kuro came and sat down next to him staring at the door with the same intensity Shiro was. “I don’t get it...what are we looking at?” The black haired boy said not looking away from the door. “A demon.” Shiro responded and the two brothers looked at one another. Kuro let out a sigh before standing up. “You’re so weird.” He said putting his hands behind his head. “Why don’t you go play with Ao...see what she can make you wear this time.” Shiro said with a smirk. Kuro stuck his tongue out at the older twin before running upstairs and doing what his brother said anyway yelling, “Ao! Let’s play dress-up!” Shiro rolled his eyes and went back to watching the door intently.

Zach glanced down at his phone when it vibrated in his hands, tilting his head to the side when he got the answer. He wouldn't have thought that bringing it to Teioh's house would have been the best idea, but if that was what he wanted, it had to be safe, he figured. He sent a message back quickly, just the letter 'K', setting the device on the bedside table and grabbing his sheets. He dragged them off to the washing machine, setting them on before moving the dishes into the kitchen. He would clean the mess when he got back. Heading to his laptop he entered the address that had been left for him into Google maps, printing the results from his home. Grabbing his phone, his wallet, keys, and the ring, Zach slipped on his shoes and left his apartment, locking it on his way out. He looked over the directions on his way down the elevator, pretty sure he knew where he was going now.

Heading into the parking garage, the blonde pulled out his keys, unlocking the doors to his shiny black car, slipping in and pulling out, turning up the radio. He glanced at the directions every once and a while, easily navigating himself through the city to the Fire residence. He turned off his car, letting out a sigh. He felt extremely guilty, being outside the house of the family of the man he had just had sex with. It was highly possible that Teioh's wife and children were inside the house, and he had no idea what the brunette had told them. Reluctantly, Zach got out of the car, closing the door behind him and stepping up onto the boulevard, running a hand through his hair as he walked down the sidewalk to the driveway, checking the house number one last time before he made it to the door. Sticking his hand into his pocket and fiddling with the ring, he rang the doorbell, hoping it would be Teioh who answered.

Shiro could hear someone stepping up the driveway and his hands clenched slightly. The door bell rang and Shiro was quickly to his feet. He jumped down the last couple steps before stepping over to the door. Kuro poked his head around the top of the stairs and saw his brother running towards the door. He was very curious as to who it was so snuck down the stairs and hid behind a wall out of sight from Shiro, and hopefully, from the door. Ao followed him and clung to his back not understanding what they were looking at by liking the feeling of spying anyway.

Shiro took a breath as he opened the door a little bit surprised by who he saw on the other side. Sure the person was unfamiliar but he was far from what Shiro had pictured. He had pictured a creepy old man or woman. He opened the outer door and frowned. “Hello?” trying to sound like he had no idea why this man was there. He could tell that his siblings were behind him attempting to hide behind a wall and he knew it was probably very possible for this man to see the two heads peeping out from around a corner. It wasn’t like the two of them were actually being very subtle.

Zach didn't have to wait long for the door to open, hoping to have to look up to see Teioh, instead seeing somebody younger than him. He mentally cursed, meeting the eyes of one of Teioh's children, recognizing the child from the picture that had been left. He smiled none the less, looking down at this child, and catching sight of what looked like the other two trying to hide around the corner. He didn't say anything about that though, letting them feel like they were actually hiding. "Hi, is your dad home, per chance?" he asked, brushing some of his blonde hair back. He didn't expect the answer to be anything but yes, since he had gotten instructions to bring the ring here. It wouldn't be a normal thing to do to ask somebody you cheated on your wife with to bring your wedding ring to your house when you weren't home. Keeping his hand in his pocket, fiddling with the ring, he waited for the answer, hoping to just give the ring to its owner and leave. Being there, seeing these kids, just made him feel even more guilty about sleeping with Teioh.

Shiro looked over his shoulder as though listening through the house before he looked back to Zach. “No. He’s out looking for my mom.” He explained curtly. “Is there anything you need?” Shiro asked being the responsible son though he couldn’t help but glare up at this man. The guilt was practically written on his face and it was infuriating to Shiro, if he was guilty why did he have to make it so painfully obvious and bother the kids. He wanted to know what he had done with his father but it wasn’t his place to ask, he shouldn’t even know.

Ao squirmed a little and Kuro looked down at her. “What’s wrong with you? You can’t go to the bathroom now, we’re hiding.” He said thinking the squirming sort of looked like she was trying to keep herself from peeing. She shook her head and tore off leaving Kuro to actually hide himself against the wall completely out of sight. Ao though ran right to the stranger. She noticed a second afterwards that she was being a little to bold for her comfort. Shiro didn’t look all too pleased by her sudden appearance but the albino boy didn’t say anything as she took up her space behind him holding on to her eldest brother but still looking up at the stranger with the sternest look she could pull off. “Do you know why my daddy wasn’t home last night? Because if you do you should tell my mom so she doesn’t have to get all upset again.” She explained. Shiro’s eyes softened at his little sisters words and even he felt a pang of guilt surge through his body. He looked up to the Zack to see what this man’s response would be to this adorable little girl’s, the spitting image of Teioh, words, on top of his own.

Zach frowned, wondering why Teioh would ask him to bring his ring over, and then leave to go look for his wife. He understood that his wife would be higher than him on his list, but at least telling him to bring it by later would be a good thing to do. He didn't know what to do now. Go home, and bring it over later? Or should he give it to this kid? He figured the latter would bring up too many questions as to why he had his father's wedding ring, and he really didn't know what to say to this kid. "Ah, alright. I just had something of his that he left with my by accident" he said, sighing slightly. He was hoping that this boy was too young to know what a hickey was, and either way, that he didn't notice the ones on his neck. He would have covered it up if he had expected to be having a lengthly conversation with anybody here. This kid really didn't seem too happy to have him around, which he could understand, except for the fact that he shouldn't know anything about what had happened that morning, so there was no reason for him to seem so hostile.

Movement caught the blonde's eye as a little girl came out from her hiding spot, standing behind her brother and looking up at him. He was suprirsed at the stern expression he was given, not expecting to see it on this little girl. He tried to hide the guilt he felt, pushing away what he felt. Being a model, once he concentrated on an expression, it wasn't hard to keep there. He blinked down at the little girl who looked so much like her father, thinking quickly before he spoke. "I'm sorry, we had a bit of a celebration at my house last night, after your dad's show" he lied quickly, thinking of what Teioh had said about an afternoon performance. "I'm sorry if anybody got worried or upset" he said, sure he was pulling off the concerned expression well enough.

Shiro watched as this guy changed his expression completely and kept it changed. So much for simply reading this guy. He had also thought that this guy wouldn’t be able to contain himself after seeing how upset Ao was. Shiro scrutinized all of this man trying to find something. “I’ll give it to him.” Shiro said holding out his hand expectantly. Ao frowned and looked at the ground, “I knew that...” she said quietly, “But mommy doesn’t listen when daddy talks to her so you should tell her. They’ll be back soon.” She said wringing out her brother’s shirt idly.

Kuro stepped up sensing the annoyance radiating from his brother. He stepped forwards and threw the little girl over his shoulder, ignoring her protest. “Sorry about her.” He said with a smile pulling the little girl back into the living room with her still over his shoulder. Shiro watched them leave and then heard the little girl give out a cheer from the other room and someone started playing the piano, he would have to assume it was his brother putting a show for the girl, to keep her occupied and out of Shiro’s hair. He was very happy to have his brother; he seemed to be the only one who understood him. Kuro and Shiro had been learning the piano, from a professional, for eight years now and both of them were good but Kuro seemed to almost have the talent of their father so the music that filled the house was surprisingly amazing coming from the obnoxious young man.

Shiro turned his attention back to the stranger in the door. He raised an eyebrow flicking his long silver/white hair out of his face so he could see it. The other man would also be able to see the glare set in his pink/red eyes. Earlier he had noticed the fact that his father hadn’t had his wedding ring on and if this man had it, it would definitely raise questions that Shiro would be more than happy to ask. He moved his fingers slightly as though to tell the older man to hurry up and get on with it.

Zach blinked slightly when the albino boy held his hand out, saying that he would take it. He didn't know if he should trust this child with it. He seemed to know way too much, just by the way he was looking at him. He knew what it was like to be examined, and this child seemed to be trying to figure things out. He couldn't know anything about what had happened. But maybe if Teioh had texted him and then left, giving it to the boy would be what he wanted. He looked down when the little girl spoke again, guilt twisting in his stomach again. So Teioh's wife didn't trust him. It made him wonder if the brunette cheated often. He was about to open his mouth to respond when the third child joined his siblings at the door, picking up the little girl that looked so much like Teioh and carrying her off after appologizing. It wasn't long after that before the sounds of piano music drifted out of the room.

His attention was brought back to the boy in the doorway when he flicked his hair out of his eyes, almost flinching at the glare in those abnormally coloured eyes, but he held it back. Hesitating a moment more, he let out a sigh, pulling the ring out of his pocket and setting it in the boy's outstretched hand. "I guess it fell off at the party last night. But I know he wouldn't want to lose it" he said, running a hand through his hair and seriously regretting coming to drop this off. He regretted everything he had done today, other than make breakfast.

Shiro had won once the ring was placed in his open hand and he fought the urge to smile down and the solid gold piece that was put into his palm. He closed his hand and dropped it to his side as he listened to the excuse this man came up with. He nodded slowly. “Thank you for returning it.” He stated flatly. He was trying to think of what to ask that wouldn’t seem to strange. He could bring up the marks on his neck, he had heard about them from Utakata before so he knew what they were and he was just going to assume that this man had gotten them recently. His hair fell back in his face but he didn’t care used to looking at the world through a curtain of silvery white anyway. He opened his mouth to say something when he saw a car pull into the driveway. So much for not getting caught. His mouth snapped shut and he swallowed hard hoping he wasn’t going to get in trouble.

Teioh sat in the passenger seat as his wife drove the car home, she was much more composed now but Teioh could see that she was still very upset, not that he could really blame her, he had just disappeared for a whole night without even thinking about contacting his family. He looked up as he heard his wife silently question something. Looking at the house he saw Zach standing at the door talking to Shiro. He tensed up slightly trying to figure out why the hell he would be there right now. When the car stopped he was out in an instant bounding up and putting a hand on either one of Zach’s shoulders. “What the fuck are you doing here!?” he questioned sharply glancing to his eldest son before looking back at Zach with a stern expression.

Mariko stepped up behind Teioh and looked at their ‘guest’. “Teioh, who is this?” she asked her thin black eyebrows furrowing together. Teioh looked at her and smiled gently, “Just a friend. He saved my butt last night.” He said shortly before turning his attention back to Zach letting go of him. “What are you doing here?” he asked trying to keep the urgency out of his voice as he spoke knowing this could be very bad. Mariko had already pinned this man as being the reason Teioh wasn’t their all night and looking him over she noticed the hickeys on his neck, her face turned to stone but she said nothing, it was only a small speculation, it proved nothing.

Zach put on a smile against his will when the boy thanked him, not sounding too happy about it. He understood that, clearly. Nobody would want some random man to show up with their father's wedding ring the day after he hadn't come home all night. "You're welcome" he replied, keeping his tone as light as possible. He opened his mouth to excuse himself and get his ass out of there before something bad happened when he heard a car pull up in the driveway. Turning his head, he paled slightly. Seeing Teioh was one thing, but he was sure his wife was going to be asking some questions.

Looking up as Teioh jumped out of the car, hands on his shoulders very quickly, asking him what he was doing there. Furrowing his eyebrows, Zach shook some of his blonde hair back from his forehead. He tensed slightly when the woman behind Teioh asked who he was, nodding slightly and giving the woman a small smile when the brunette explained. He figured now that Teioh was going with the truth, minus what they had done this morning. He frowned though as the question was asked to him again. "You. . . told me to. . . " he said slowly, his tone making it clear that he was confused. He had no idea why Teioh was asking him what he was doing there, while it hadn't been that long ago that the man had texted him, telling him to drop the ring off here.

Teioh’s eyebrows pulled together as he was told that he had invited Zach over, remembering no such thing. He looked away from Zach to his son as the boy jerked slightly as though he wanted to leave. His eyes sharpened, his boy could not hide that guilty face from him. He reached forward grabbing the boy by the ear earning a yelp of protest from the twelve year old albino boy. “What did you do?” Teioh asked sharply his voice quite demanding. Shiro looked up at him with an equally sharp look but eventually broke under his father’s gaze. “He texted saying he had your ring, so I told him to come over.” He said holding out his hand and opening it revealing the shiny ring in his palm. He looked down at the ground avoiding his father’s gaze.

Teioh flushed slightly, the tops of his cheeks turning a light pink colour. He knew he had forgotten something. He was quick to snatch the small article from his son and slide it back on his finger. He turned to Zach. “Thanks.” He muttered keeping his eyes, for the most part, on the ground. He could feel Mariko staring at him and he swore he heard her let out a single quiet sob, but his ears could have been playing tricks on him as well. “Mari, bring Shiro inside. I think he needs to be lectured about touching other peoples’ things.” He stated finally looking up with a smile. Mariko smiled at him before leading their son inside quickly shutting the door behind her.

Teioh turned to Zach once the door was closed behind the woman and her son. He smiled despite how bothered he was on the inside. “Jeez, couldn’t you have at least tried to hide these.” He said pinching the larger of the two hickeys on this man’s neck. He had known Mariko had seen them, but he also knew she would never ever admit to it. She was the kind of person who liked to think nothing was wrong and that she could be living a perfect life with the person she loved all the time. But Teioh’s record wasn’t the best. Though this had been the first time in twelve years he had ever slept with someone else he had done enough in his first eighteen years of life to ruin his chances of trust for the rest of it.

Zach was slightly confused when the taller man's expression. He was half tempted to check his phone to make sure he had actually gotten the text, and wasn't going insane. He followed Teioh's gaze to the little albino boy, raising a blonde eyebrow slightly. He was silent as Teioh dealt with his son, easily getting an answer out of the boy. His eyes widened slightly at the response given by the kid, biting back a sigh. He had been played. By a child. He really was getting old. What a shame, being old at the age of 23. He bit his lip, feeling extremely stupid for showing up at Teioh's house to bring him his wedding ring, when it turns out the man hadn't told him to come at all, and he had probably just screwed the man over completely. He watched as Teioh took the ring before turning back to him. "Eh, no problem" he replied, looking off to the side, feeling very awkward. He was suddenly very aware of the marks on his neck that stood out so much against his pale skin.

The blonde crossed one arm behind his back, grabbing the other arm with it as he watched Teioh's wife and son leave, looking up to the taller man once they were gone. He gave a small, forced smile when Teioh pinched the hickey on the side of his neck. "I'm sorry. I would have, if I had expected to be talking to anybody else for more than thirty seconds" he said, sighing. "Ugh, what have I done? I'm so, so sorry" he looked down for a moment, the feeling of guilt in his stomach growing, if anything. At this point, he couldn't even remember why he had agreed to sleep with a married man. That was probably the worst mistake he had made in his life, and there was no way he could take it back.

Teioh shook his head the small smile on Zach’s face looked even more force than he was sure the one on his own looked. He felt horrible, but apparently he wasn’t the only one. He didn’t like the words that left Zach, he felt his chest and throat clench. Teioh didn’t think he had anything to be sorry about. He put a hand on Zach’s chin, lifting the younger man’s head to look him in the eyes. “You have nothing to be sorry about; you’ve done absolutely nothing wrong.” Teioh said in a very quiet voice his other hand moving up to Zach’s face, long fingers running through his dirty blond hair. “Please don’t let this bother you. Everything’s going to be fine.” Teioh said, trying to tell himself the exact same thing. He licked his lips before pressing them to Zach’s, glad that they were not visible from this spot. Teioh had to admit to himself. He regretted nothing he had done that morning, but if Zach was going to be this upset about it he didn’t think he’d be able to deal with it.

Zach looked up into the blue eyes of the taller man when the hand on his chin pulled his head up. He grimaced when Teioh spoke, wondering if the brunette actually thought that. He had done many things wrong today, and he felt terrible about all of them. "I've done so many things wrong" he muttered, shaking his head. The fingers running through his hair was slightly comforting, but it didn't help him much at the moment. He bit his lip, fighting back tears, all the terrible things he had done in the past morning flashing through his mind, along with the faces of Teioh's children, whose lives he could have just ruined, for all he knew. He shook his head again, wanting to believe that what the taller man said with true, but he couldn't bring himself to believe it at the moment. He was still for a moment when Teioh kissed him before turning his head to the side, a choked sob escaping from his lips, unable to hold back his tears any longer. He felt like a fool, crying in front of this man, but he couldn't help it, the guilt clawing at his stomach.

Teioh felt completely crushed at both the man’s words then as the tears started to fall down his face. Teioh’s jaw clenched tightly, he didn’t know how to cheer people up without doing anything sexual, and he wasn’t sure that would do much or anything positive here. He chewed at his lip. He pulled Zach into a tight hug; one arm wrapped around his upper back the other up his back, fingers linking tightly into his dark blond hair. “Please... It’s not your fault.” He choked out, “You’ve done absolutely nothing wrong. I’m the one at fault here.” He smiled, laughing slightly with a rather morbid feel. “If anything does happen...it’s just karma, I deserve anything I get.” He didn’t say a word about how anything related to this could hurt his kids, he didn’t want to think about that right now...or ever, and hopefully nothing would ever come to that. He didn’t want to let go of Zach, scared of what might happen if he did, though he had no idea why, he had only met this man the other night. He generally wasn’t one to get attached to the people he slept with, but on the other hand...maybe something changed in the past twelve years.

Zach buried his face in Teioh's shoulder when he was pulled to him, unable to help himself. He didn't want the older man to see his face when he was crying like this. He brought his hands up to grab the front of his shirt, trying to stiffle his sobs. He shook his head against the taller man's shoulder, denying what he had just said. "I agreed to it. It's against everything I would normally do, but I did it! I had sex with a married man! One I just met! I don't do that! God knows how much I've screwed up!" he made sure to keep his voice down, just in case, but his words were thick with his tears, muffled against Teioh's shoulder. "I'm so sorry" he said again, shaking his head, feeling strangely comforted by Teioh's embrace.